Tuesday, January 27, 2009






The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.



--Reinhold Niebuhr

Living One Day at a time is a discipline we all have to focus on when we are in our daily lives. It is easy to slip back into worrying about tomorrow,dwelling on the "What if's" and the " If onlys". Each day brings a host of things we " Cannot Change" ; there will be circumstances beyond our control. We must also face reality of who we are--- human beings confined within the slice of life we call today. It is tempting to deny the present, but escaping reality is part of the "Insanity" of our addictive way of life we call today. Jesus Christ said " Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?... Don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will will bring it's own worries.Today's trouble is is enough for today [Matt.6:27,34]. They Prophet Jeremiah said, " The Unfailing love of the Lord never ends! ByHis Mercies we have been kept from complete destruction. Great is His faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each day" [Lam.3;22,23]. Since God's grace comes in a daily does, that's the best way to face life. We need to ask ourselves at every turn in life, Am I accepting this present moment, or am I pretending--- trying to ecape the past or the future? Each new day is something to find joy in, and there is strength promised for the trouble in that day. The Psalmist wrote, " This is the day that the Lord had made, we will rejoice and be glad in it" [Psalm 118:24]. We,too, can choose to find joy,strength, and sanity when we accept each day's realities. i_amgodschild

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Homeword Bound


As I am sitting here on my couch reading our precious God's Word the thing I am thinking to self and unto all of You here this day as the sun is shinning down out of my windows seeing the trees and such a bright clear cold day here in Missouri. In my own readings here today I just wanted to share all of my thoughts that are guided by the Lord through prayer in helping me with His Word to all of you just as well as myself today . Through this world turmoils that we see on our news each day and onto the evening as we all watch it in our homes . In having us all looking going towards that " Homeward Bound" Wow ! SUCH an excitement for everyone all around this vast world that we live in not only in our prespective homes that we are all used to being about ones daily activites as each of face each and every day but to those whom we each can't talk to or go to see all of those folk's that in other countries or have any kinds of means of travel we just can lift each of every ones heart that may come our way No matter where we live in this world even in our own back yards some body some where needs God's love and all of his promises that guide us to see that His words keep onto those whom needs His Love to shine forth even when times are so very hard in today's times as we all know it. Yet at times He's truly all around us. There are truly so many signs that in all indication that our very precious precious JESUS is about to return to His earth in which all will know as it with all of it's conditions that this will come forth soon but as we truly know it as Isreal is preparing to go forth heading to the promise land; religious climate preparing for the one world order with it's own church with such a rapid acceleration of all of life's conditions - such as potential atomic annihilation, population explodes as well as some have died that we have know daily, all of this world's pollution that truly requires as all events runs it own natural course and terminate this world as what we've all known will be gone before us all. But the most significant thing to see is that we must getting inside of "self" is in all of the Lord's own promises for us to keep Him ever so close inside of us and unto all others whom are down and feels so helpless in the conditions of what we face each and every day that the Lord Jesus Christ is truly within us No matter what we face each and everyday. ***Let that therefore abide in you, which ye have heard from the beginning shall remain in you,ye also shall continue in the Son, and the Father. And that this is the promise that He hath promised us, even eternal life. These things have I written ye have seduced you.* But the anointing which ye have received of him abideth in you, and ye need not that any man teach you: but the same anointing teacheth you of all things,and is truth and is NI lie,and even as it hath taught you,ye shall abide in him. [1 John 2: 24-27]. God makes that promise of eternal life for those who put their faith in Jesus Christ. The question that is set here today is: " Are we all truly trusting the in the Lord Jesus Christ for eternal life? If not, Why? Why not do it now? If you already have, tell this world about him and in all of those town and cities and countries in sharing with someone else about God's promises today. For as we see things today from all of those beauty cremes to vitamines to aerobics, always reaching for that fountain of youth. They want to avoid growing old, perhaps because it leads to to the final,ultimate reality of death. For some folks that reality is very painful to most people that they won't even consider it. They make little or No preparations for thier own death or it's own aftermath. From preparing our lives we see this whom loves the Lord Jesus Christ for it may be our own next door neighbors that we see daily or or co-workers, where folk's are dinning out we see it everywhere when all anyone needs to is be His child and serve him in helping all others before us as our own Father would want to be about His business as He comes for everyone whom serves Him and totaly devoted unto Jesus Christ. So brothers and sister i am doing this and I'm sure each of you are doing the same. For we are His and we thank Him and Praise Him daily in our own homes and as we enter in His house of prayer in our church home. For all of His promised helps when all things look it's darkest He comes shinning down on us as His kids. For He is our Holy Father whom reigns upon this world that at times looks so bleek just look unto Him for everything. i_amgodschild

"Many nations shall come and say, Come, and let us go up to the mountain of the Lord, To the house of the God of Jacob; He will teach us His ways, And we shall walk in His paths." For out of Zion the law shall go forth, And the word of the Lord from Jerusalem. - Mic 4:2

"If I forget thee, O Jerusalem, let my right hand forget her cunning. If I do not remember thee, let my tongue cleave to the roof of my mouth; if I prefer not Jerusalem above my chief joy." Psalm 137:5,6

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Hello To All & Happy Holidays 2 You

Hello to Everyone ! I thought that I'd drop in to let you all know that I and My family are doing today for I have throughly have missed each of you. Since I've been away alot has taken place in and around my life since I've last talked with those on the Internet of whom is a large part pf my family as well for as much as people in my local community as well. I'm on a friends computer right now until I cn find me a pc table so I can get back on here once again. And to add to it as well in getting friends and family in finding time to help me clear out my apartment so I can get set up in having a home . I've also been very busy in helping my older brother for he is very sick and has a diflibator in his heart and the doctors are trying to find a way to operate on him this coming Jan as of right now. So I've been traveling back n forth to help him during this time. He's been depressed and very discouraged and in a lot of ways is wanting to go home to be with his deceased wife. He's been sharing his feelings openly with his pastor and his church friends whom check on him every couple of days as well. So keep Junior Mueller in your prayers please. As ofr me i,too, am doing the same as well. My children have been with me over this holiday season and we've had a wonderful time sharing and have had family time togather while they all was here with me for a short time. Of course they has their time together as most siblings do at this time of year. Now I just want to have my own home put together and have some things to donate to places and books to my own church that might help someone as they come into our home church of course they have been used but somewhere someone may need a Bible until they could afford to get one themselves. And a halfway houses may need things as well in my local community as well. This is whats been on my plate right now along with getting things to spice up my home and above all window coverings so I can keep out the cold and the hot blasts of the summer heat. So as you all can see alot needs to be done but it will take time as everything else in our daily living. I have been praying for ALL of You and with All of the Prayer Requests as I can get on here to see them in putting them in my files on the pc until I can get back on my own pc. God Bless You each and everyone in whom I love as well. This picture is of this past christmas with my daughter and my son...Nikki & Joesph I Hope each of You have a wonderful New Year and this I celebrate my 18th year of total soberity as of New Years Eve what a blessing for me and I sincernly thank the Lord Jesus for continued Soberity. Sincerly; Catherine R. Close... i_amgodschild
"Many nations shall come and say, Come, and let us go up to the mountain of the Lord, To the house of the God of Jacob; He will teach us His ways, And we shall walk in His paths." For out of Zion the law shall go forth, And the word of the Lord from Jerusalem. - Mic 4:2

"If I forget thee, O Jerusalem, let my right hand forget her cunning. If I do not remember thee, let my tongue cleave to the roof of my mouth; if I prefer not Jerusalem above my chief joy." Psalm 137:5,6

Monday, October 20, 2008

prayers needed for these two people red flag


Hello to all prayer warriors; Jesse and Michelle K they both are my son and his wife they both are in wicca and needs the gates of hell to bring them both out of darkness of the spirit of wicca and right now shes under the knife at north kansas city hospital and they need salvation like them both having the Damscus road experience in them both and take lord to be one in him and to come out of that lifestyle they both are in being bi-sexual gay life style as well. so Jesus Christ will take them home and use them for bringing the lost home as well. I want to thank each of in advance for praying over them both right now during this time. cathy close"Many nations shall come and say, Come, and let us go up to the mountain of the Lord, To the house of the God of Jacob; He will teach us His ways, And we shall walk in His paths." For out of Zion the law shall go forth, And the word of the Lord from Jerusalem. - Mic 4:2

"If I forget thee, O Jerusalem, let my right hand forget her cunning. If I do not remember thee, let my tongue cleave to the roof of my mouth; if I prefer not Jerusalem above my chief joy." Psalm 137:5,6

Monday, October 13, 2008

Prayer For This Nation

Dear Precious Heavenly Father whom I call upon the Name of Jesus Christ for this earth is the Lords and all of it's fullness thereof; the whole world and they that dwell therein it. Ps.24:1. Precious Father as I pray this morning all through the day unto the evening for all the children of whom we are in You and for those whom are not believers that truly have one's eye's opened to see just what Your truths are with Your infinte wisdom, knowledge, understanding in just what is about to take place upon this land of the United States of America that every citizen that lives within it borders that each of Vote will be impacted by the vast multitude of Individuals whom will be impacting such a significant that will be directing us in this nation It's not only about us as individuals it's all about You Lord Jesus Christ whom many of us are believers or say that they are, but You precious Father truly know whom they are that's written down in the Lambs Book of Life. For this earth and all individuals whether they realize it or not truly belongs only to You in what You've have given us; it's not truly our to have for really it comes from what you've given unto all individuals it can disappear in an instance and realize that in keeping it unto our rememberence,some of us think otherwise and if the truths are known we have become greedy individuals and make a mockey of self along our paths, and don't even think about You in our daily life at all so when we do then we just give all things that we have right back unto your hands thatonly comes by Your grace and mercy that we have shelter from all storms in life that come our way, finances that are from you that we have worked daily and has given it right back to You in worship and praise of worship in whom You are in each individuals all across the United States of America.For Father God each individual all across this land will be held accountable for each decision that we have acted upon will be written down it will be showing if we are or not relying on being a God fearing nation in all of our action in fearing in knowing whom You are in us are we voting in what the biblical principles are within us or with the world's point of view. Is it by their way of thinking or Yours that we must take a hold of in our hearts and minds.Whom will we represent in this up and coming vote in the election that all of us citizens in this nation as a whole that will be impacted in whom's direction we up-hold it, and be impacted all across the world as well. Father God we have been a nation that has served You and in getting the Gospel to all other nations all across the globe and we want to continue in saving the Lost all across the globe as You have sat down upon us in the Bible for us to reminded to do by Your Holy Commandments.By following YOU we have been granted wisdom, knowledge and understanding as loving christians witness that has drawn all citizens that are individuals in such a saving encounter within each individuals all across amercia and unto all nations in this world tht YOU have made we truly have nothing it will be taken away upon our death. We only have all things by which You have made sure of that Your children can have by working daily in our life, that has strengthen us as we continue in this life as we all have been encouraged by one another on a daily basis in whom You truly are that all our own hopes can rely on and that is truly You Jesus Christ, Father God, and the Holy Ghost in all prayers that comes up unto Your Throne Room for we as Your Children have inadequacy in our life as we seek You from our own transgressions that is within us while living upon the land that You have made and given unto us as a Nation whom does has the privilage in impacting all others to be believers of Jesus Christ, and in an instant can be taken away from us by we do or do not do before You. Oh, Father, that part alone breaks my own heart in two that I just can't put into words before You. You have given us so much as we daily seek you in our daily lives as we regard Your Commandments and all teaching that You have sat down before us as Your children. By having Godly counsel by whom You have given unto Your children as Pastors,prophets,bishops,evangelist,priests whom counsels your children that we are suppose to be disciples as we uphold Your truths and not waver from them as Your children for we fail often times enough in asking for Your forgiveness in fetching self up and going about all business of serving You and bringing that lost one home unto You as they in turn reach out to all people and nations, No color, creed, or race it's all about You Father God not as races, color, or some old creed that we have been taught which had been mis-guided in our hearts and minds in some way or fashion it's those ways that have hurt people in the way it has been carried out that has hurt us as a people of God whom love You Lord Jesus and has shared when we've been hurt that You have hurt right long side us. but our remains alive knowing that your standing toe to toe with us in all hurts, habits,and our own hang-ups that we've carried inside of us as Individuals and as Your children that only You Jesus Christ carries us and does take it away when we pray unto You. For Us not to remember them No more and to throw it awa from the east to the west and not to ever return to them in our lives, then if it comes it isn't by you but our minds that bring it to one's rememberances that hurts all others whom is in our own path at that moment in time and for us to ask forgivness and to tarry on that You have us do daily as we reach not only this nation and around this world but right in our own back yard as well. Often times enough we have lost people that we loved by what we've said to others in some mean way but Father we really didn't mean to do those types of things and we know by that forgivness by whom You are in us we set things right and keep on that fireing linein touching someone else as we are Your disciple in reach the world at any cost that may come our way it's You whom we are to represent not self in any way shape or form or it would be useless unto self. For self and only self will be accountable in all of our ways as one day e will be standing in the Throne room have self being accoutable for either we have done or haven't done before You Father. It then will be truly evident as we stand before You Jesus that it will be shown rather we have destroyed sin in our lives or by Your sacrifice that destroyed all works of satan; that is in us whom are believers that has been righteous before You Father that have been faithful and true before You, that are the righteous ones, holy, and happy. As one wisdom, learning of Your virtues, having wealth or power can ever keep us from one's deliever us from one's own death we either be condemned on that day or we will be delievers by the hand of Jesus Christ No one passes through it at that moment in time. No Matter what professions we have as what we do for a living and working or retied from in our daily jobs which includes: "Millions of Elected Officals, judges, lawayers, police officers, bureaucrats,miltary officers,soldiers,businessmen and women,executives,manangers, all church leaderships, educators,retired people, medical doctors, practioners, hospital administrators,and all other fields of works that employs individuals that work is not exempt from facing Jesus Christ's Judgement on that day. We need to realize by serving Jesus Christ and on a person vote is this statements is it ethical by God's standards, honest, faithful, do they represent purity, reliable, timely, teachable in spirit and in ruths of Jesus Christ in what this nation believes in as a people of God,compassionate, do they themselves represent biblical views of Jesus Christ, the sanctty of life and up hold moral values as a nation of people in whom Individuals believe in self and will not be bent on humanism that is in our nation that would come against God's people or what God has laid down in whom we believe in as a believer of Jesus Christ. And being in any kind of an occult or any kind of secret societies,new age,false religions those would reverse the trend of us having God Fearing nation that would come totally against God. We have a choices and we can either not look and turn our heads and shut down our ears and let the ungodly rule this nation or we allow God to rule and reign this nation. Precious Father we do come against Satan (Anti-christ) in the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ and we come armed with Your Blood and Your Word which is our sword as we do totally pierce You with all truths of our Lord Jesus Christ whom came in the flesh to literally destroy Your works that is upon our United States Of America and all individuals whom are staaninf toe to toe with you as your principalites that whom are with you satan. Even now as we lift up our hands as we give our praise and worship unto the Lord Jesus Christ are now bound with fetter of iron as we break all assignment that have been put on the United States of America as we approch the day we vote on an President of the United States of which it's citizen live whom are God's Children all across it's lands whom truly stand arm in arm in arm in having one of these two men stand upon God's word whom will stand toe to teoe with God the Father, God the Son and the Holy Ghost and whom truly believes in God whom is the Head of the whole earth and not Satan.Father God WE stand upon this verse in what it is that this verse says unto us as The United States Of America of which we all live and have been born in:" Fear them not therefore:for there is nothing covered, that shall NOT be revealed;and hid,that shall NOT be known" unto Jesus Christ and all His disciple will come to pass so we will know whom to vote for on this election of 2008 that publicly upon every persons homes and houstops in this nation so people will know it's truths that You Father reveals unto us as Your children. And as we pray we firmly believe that bind on earth is truly bound in heaven and with Your authority we cast You down Satan. By faith we scatter every heavenly forces array that comes against us as those Holy Angels smite them down in our behalf Greater is He that is in us and more powerful ate those within us then with you satan. Jesus Christ stands alone w ith His armyies whom defends His peopleJesus sends His word to delievers us from all of your devices as we put it into flight every single demonic power in our United States of America in this vote of 2008 would hinder the wroks and the word of God that goes forth in this place. That we have bound all of your chiefs, demons, that grops around in the darkness,staggering as we smite them by Jesus Christ blood and ressurection power that it is done by crusing you down to the pits of hell as we laugh and our God laughs as we brough it down and crushed as You recognize that You Must bown at the Name of jesus Christ for He is Lord over every single home, ministries, cities, country that's within it's borders. Now by Faith we loose the peace and grace and all truths of Jesus Christ. For we welcome the Holy Spirit and to do His good work here, saving, healing, delivering us as a nation and having God's Kingdom established to the Glor of Our father in whom we do serve as we tarry about in His business till he comes. In the Name of the Lord Jesus Christ I pray. Amen. i_amgodschild
"Many nations shall come and say, Come, and let us go up to the mountain of the Lord, To the house of the God of Jacob; He will teach us His ways, And we shall walk in His paths." For out of Zion the law shall go forth, And the word of the Lord from Jerusalem. - Mic 4:2

"If I forget thee, O Jerusalem, let my right hand forget her cunning. If I do not remember thee, let my tongue cleave to the roof of my mouth; if I prefer not Jerusalem above my chief joy." Psalm 137:5,6

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Freedom Of Believers From Condemnation


Read Romans 8:1-39>Freedom Of Believers From Condemnation:"


Believers may be chastened of the Lord, but will not be condemned with the world. By their union with Christ through faith, they are thus secured. What is the principle of their walk; the flesh or the Spirit, the old or the new nature, corruption or grace? For which of these do we make provision, by which are we governed? The unrenewed will is unable to keep any commandment fully. And the law, besides outward duties, requires inward obedience. God showed abhorrence of sin by the

sufferings of his Son in the flesh, that the believer's person might be pardoned and justified. Thus satisfaction was made to Divine justice, and the way of salvation opened for the sinner. By the Spirit the law of love is written upon the heart, and though the righteousness of the law is not fulfilled by us, yet, blessed be God, it is fulfilled in us; there is that in all true believers, which answers the intention of the law. The favour of God, the welfare of the soul, the concerns of

eternity, are the things of the Spirit, which those that are after the Spirit do mind. Which way do our thoughts move with most pleasure? Which way go our plans and contrivances? Are we most wise for the world, or for our souls? Those that live in pleasure are dead, 1Ti 5:6. A sanctified soul is a living soul; and that life is peace. The carnal mind is not only an enemy to God, but enmity itself. The carnal man may, by the power of Divine grace, be made

subject to the law of God, but the carnal mind never can; that must be broken and driven out. We may know our real state and character by inquiring whether we have the Spirit of God and Christ, or not, ver. 9. Ye are not in the flesh, but in the Spirit. Having the Spirit of Christ, means having a turn of mind in some degree like the mind that was in Christ Jesus, and is to be shown by a life and conversation suitable to his precepts and example. (Ro

8:10-17)


Their privileges as being the children of God.



If the Spirit be in us, Christ is in us. He dwells in the heart by faith. Grace in the soul is its new nature; the soul is alive to God, and has begun its holy happiness which shall endure for ever. The righteousness of Christ imputed, secures the soul, the better part, from death. From hence we see how much it is our duty to walk, not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. If any habitually live according to corrupt lustings, they will certainly perish in their sins, whatever they

profess. And what can a worldly life present, worthy for a moment to be put against this noble prize of our high calling? Let us then, by the Spirit, endeavour more and more to mortify the flesh. Regeneration by the Holy Spirit brings a new and Divine life to the soul, though in a feeble state. And the sons of God have the Spirit to work in them the disposition of children; they have not the spirit of bondage, which the Old Testament church was under, through the darkness of that dispensation.

The Spirit of adoption was not then plentifully poured out. Also it refers to that spirit of bondage, under which many saints were at their conversion. Many speak peace to themselves, to whom God does not speak peace. But those who are sanctified, have God's Spirit witnessing with their spirits, in and by his speaking peace to the soul. Though we may now seem to be losers for Christ, we shall not, we cannot, be losers by him in the end. (Ro 8:18-25) Prayer : Dear Precious Father; I come before You this day in worship and In all truths that You have set before us in Your Word. I Praise You and I thank You for all that You do before us in our lives Lord Jesus we want to lay down our lives and in doing doing so in asking for your forgivnes in all that we've have done in our lives before You as our God that as Your disciples in going about what You've have set down before us that we have not done it very good before You that you've seen in us that other's don't see as we walk before You. We are truly stiffneck people in being numb in what is going on daily in our life by what we've seen and heard in this darkened world around us that we have been darkended by our surroundings by news, work, families whom deter us from the light of the Word that sweeps us in our hearts instead of drinking in You and your word that helps us to keep strong and which strengthens us by us being washed by the Holy Spirit in turn of whom you are in us with security and peace deeply within us as your children.Father tenderize all of our hearts again so that our wholeness which does desires come stronger in having you indwell us much much stronger so we don't drift away from You and that we all are wholly yours as You set all of our hearts on fire as You ambush our lives that ushers us out of our ruts that have hindered all of us which have hindered all of us from being a dreamer, lover and most of all Your effective warrior because we are your children. Father forgive us all for our hearts aches as we draw upon youand most of all captivate us and devolop us, as you speak so tenderly unto us as you seal us in our hearts because we are totally yours as you release us by the whirlwind and revlutionize all impartations in our life from the inside out, let the earthquack begin that breaks up all fallow and shallow grounds that is within us so that our minds strongly be conscious instead of self-conscious for we are totally ready in such a desperation in our humbleness that humliation that has come upon us in our life in having such a profound touch that only comes from You Father with a brand new baptisim of fire in the Holy Spirit that will takes us to the end of time in going home being in You in all of ur hearts today.* Radiate us for we are carriers of You in our lives by your glory in touching all people that are own eyes in them seeing You through our eyes by the heart of You by Your Word. Let those know that we your heart that you hath given us in that others cannot help but change as you radiate through us unto those lives whom comes in contack around us as we tarry about being your servants in sharing the Gosple as you know and hear the loves that carries unto all people in the world today we ask this by the power and authority of Your shed blood that takes us daily being in You in the Name of Jesus we ask and pray. Amen. cathy..i_amgodschild. Many nations shall come and say, Come, and let us go up to the mountain of the Lord, To the house of the God of Jacob; He will teach us His ways, And we shall walk in His paths." For out of Zion the law shall go forth, And the word of the Lord from Jerusalem. - Mic 4:2

"If I forget thee, O Jerusalem, let my right hand forget her cunning. If I do not remember thee, let my tongue cleave to the roof of my mouth; if I prefer not Jerusalem above my chief joy." Psalm 137:5,6

Friday, October 3, 2008

Prayer Please


I'm here to give everyone an Update on Me and what's taken place in my life. I had a fall my leg went out from under me and I'm on pain meds, soon to have x-rays done, over to a back n pain place then rehab. I have had an interview with Section 8 housing and they will put me in a disabled place for me to live in.now i'm waiting on a call from them. They say it takes 4 to 6 weeks to be placed in a home but with the Lord and people in prayer it moves faster for us whom loves him as he provides our provision in our behalf. Now prayers for Salvation for the following people:1. Jan&Bill Terry;2.Nicole Babusa;3.Jesse & Michelle Kaaz ;4.Micheal Sandison;5.Dan & Penny Gettings6. Jim&Holly Terry Most of these are family members and the 5th ones are friends she has problems with her health since she had been through electric shock thearpy and the doctors had given her way to much and is about to file a law suit against them and they have small children they are raising in the home and wonderful parents to them.She's looking for a church home and I'm having her going to my home church as she searches for one.As far as my family are concerned they are non=believers and the kinda of sign they had put up the mirror here tells each of you what they told me forth right how they feel about God which has hurt me very deeply to say the least:" Jesus Loves You/But your a butt whole ...but in another term" I'm thankful I'm leaving this place in my future.As I've gone to my sunday school class and have studied Ephesians. I've learning not to be like the world but yet share with the world about Jesus Christ and to love others whom are in my path and daily walk in this life for He hath given Himself up for all mankind of this world. For He has a sweet-smelling aroma which is His sacrifice to God.and there MUST not be No sexual sin among us or any kind of evil talk or greed for they are not right for us whom love and obey the Lord Jesus Christ and folks this is whom I live among before charlie passed away and up to this point in my life. Keep them in your prayers.For they are serving a false God.I love them as our Jesus loves them and I earnstly pray for them daily . At first I couldn't because of all of the hurt that was burried deeply inside of me but through the people of God has helped me through all of those hurts and to serve Him through it all. My daughter-in-law believes in "Wicca as well as my daughter. My son and his wife does things in their marriage that I don't believe in at all in thier bedroom which ought not to be in a marriage.So I started looking for my own place to live to be away from it and to be at peace again in my life without having such multiple drama in my life that tells me to get out and away from it all and that's what i've done now so would each of you stand in with me at this time? I greatly thank you in my own heart I'd rather live wisely than being how they live in each of those lives. I appreciate each one of you even though I haven't been doing much on the net because of what i've been under living here and I'm tired now strength has gone but the Lord is watching over me and is hearing me through it all.I honor the Lord as Paul has said to walk worthy during times like these as I walk in the Light of God. He's keeping me right by His side and loves me for I'm am His child for He gives us His wisdom to carry on through it all. And as I sing songs of praise and worship Him for He fills me up in being His. Thank You Jesus! i_amgodschild. "Many nations shall come and say, Come, and let us go up to the mountain of the Lord, To the house of the God of Jacob; He will teach us His ways, And we shall walk in His paths." For out of Zion the law shall go forth, And the word of the Lord from Jerusalem. - Mic 4:2

"If I forget thee, O Jerusalem, let my right hand forget her cunning. If I do not remember thee, let my tongue cleave to the roof of my mouth; if I prefer not Jerusalem above my chief joy." Psalm 137:5,6

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

PRAISE THE LORD... Praise Report!!!!

PRAISE THE LORD !!!!!!!! He answered our prayers thank you Jesus !!!!!! Today we found out we will have a home that a local church in our area is putting my son... Jesse, Wife... Michelle... and Me in a home that had belonged to one of the people whom attends a local church that they went to get help from and now 3 weeks later we can get a key to home 9/10/2008. WHAT A BLESSING TO US from the Lord. It's a beauitful home to say the least it's a 3 bedroom home with 1 bath, front room dinning area,basement with the garage on the back side of the home, with hardwood floors throught out this home. I wanted to Thank ya'll for praying 4 us all. Because I knew that Jesus Christ would give us our desires and i had said to my daughter-in-law that this is an answer to our prayers. and we have ya'll pray for us and my church. I just had to let ya'll know about it and give ya'll this praise report too. Sister in the Lord.... cathy...i_amgodschild.


"Many nations shall come and say, Come, and let us go up to the mountain of the Lord, To the house of the God of Jacob; He will teach us His ways, And we shall walk in His paths." For out of Zion the law shall go forth, And the word of the Lord from Jerusalem. - Mic 4:2

"If I forget thee, O Jerusalem, let my right hand forget her cunning. If I do not remember thee, let my tongue cleave to the roof of my mouth; if I prefer not Jerusalem above my chief joy." Psalm 137:5,6

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Grandview wreck kills motorcyclist


Grandview wreck kills motorcyclist

A motorcyclist died this evening after colliding with another vehicle on U.S. 71 in Grandview.

The wreck happened about 5 p.m. near 143rd Street, Grandview Police Sgt. Joseph McKinstry said in a news release. He said the motorcyclist, 56-year-old Nick J. Nichols Sr., of Raytown, was taken to a hospital, where he was pronounced dead. The wreck still was under investigation tonight .


This was posted yesterday Wed,Aug.27,2008 in our local News Paper This is a friend of mine whom rode with Visions MC In the Independence & Raytown area. Please keep His family & friends in your prayers.He was a member of Alcoholic Anonymous in Independence Area.


Friday, August 15, 2008

Prayer Requests


Prayer Request: My Grown Children & I have these prayer request from all of us to everyone else in our behalf unto the Lord of Host. For starters we all are looking for a home to live in. We will Not be living togather!!! We have all signed up for "Section 8" housing in our local area and we are all waiting on a response from them letting us know that everying is cleared for us to move in there places. Plus I've heard that my own finaces will be raising sometime this year from the state of Missouri which is a blessing for me keep praying that it will come fourth soon. Please pray for me on healing because the other day my right foot slipped out from under me while getting out of my sons van and I hit very hard and I hurt from the fall that I had taken on the floor of his van. It's so very hard to sit and walk for me right now. I was trying to put some things on my husbands grave that day when this had taken place. Please take note that right now I have and will be praying for everyone that has had and will be asking for prayer on this internet that I will be prayed by me even though I may not post it back on all prayer boards to anyone right now, for I'm busy finding a home along with my children for they asked me for my help in looking for a home. For us to achieve the best things for us is "Picking Up Sticks "for those branches have fallen out in this vast world of ours that we live in today. In doing those we will have helped others alone our way in passing by someone today, in behalf of our Apostle Paul in whom hath said these words. For you bretheren,were [indeed] called to freedom:only[do not let your]freedom be an incentive to your flesh and an opportunity or excuse [for"selfishness], but through love you should serve one another. Gal.5:13[Amplified Bible]
"Many nations shall come and say, Come, and let us go up to the mountain of the Lord, To the house of the God of Jacob; He will teach us His ways, And we shall walk in His paths." For out of Zion the law shall go forth, And the word of the Lord from Jerusalem. - Mic 4:2

"If I forget thee, O Jerusalem, let my right hand forget her cunning. If I do not remember thee, let my tongue cleave to the roof of my mouth; if I prefer not Jerusalem above my chief joy." Psalm 137:5,6

Jesus Christ Sees All !!!

Jesus Christ Sees All !!!
Are You in His book Of Life & Death ?

Welcome Home To I_amgodschildcc Place

This is a very warm Welcome To each of You whom came unto this place, i_am godschild cc Home I am glad that you decided to join. I am sure you will find many blessings with us as I am sure you will be a blessing to our family. i_amgodschildcc Home is a Special Room for us to come to for PRAISE and WORSHIP to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, praying for each other, praying for all prayer requests that are shared with us, share testimonies, Bible studies, Christian devotionals, poems, songs and Christian inspirational sites. We are a group of believers dedicated to lifting in prayer the needs that are shared with us, sustain our brethen, Praise the Lord, spread the Wordof God and to reach out to lost and unsaved souls.OFFENSIVE LANGUAGE HAS NO PLACE IN THIS CHRIST CENTERED HOME!!! Because many people has grown up in hearing and /or using offensive language, this is very painful to ALL of us in this home it will NOT be tolerated at ALL!!! If someone post those types of Offensive lanuage you will be deleated Immediately DISMISSED otherwise Banned from this Home of the Lord Jesus Christ it will NOT be tolerated at ALL!!!! There is NO asking for Donations or Money of to Send Money of any kind in Advertising your work. If the Lord wants someone to send money to a person, He will place it upon the heart of someone to do so. It would be appreciated if All people whom come to this site that if You whom come to post here that You would refrain from Gossip or Critizing people here in this home of Jesus Christ for we do Not do any kind of disagreements, nor we Debate it anything in this Home at All!! It will Not, for the Lord say's in His Sword of His Own Word in this manner for all of Us to follow and adhere to: "You brood of snakes ! How could evil men like you speak what is good and right? For whatever is in your heart determines what you say. A good person produces good words from a good heart, and an evil person produces evil words from an evil heart. And I tell You this, that YOU Must give an account on Judgement day of every idle word You speak The Words You say now reflects Your fate then; either You will be justified by them or You will be condemned...[Matt.12:34-36N.L.T.] Feel free to post on the message board as the Holy Spirit leads you. Please share your prayers and be in agreement with other prayers that are shared with us. Let's just lift Holy hands and Praise the Lord today!!

14 Oh, how generous and gracious our Lord was! He filled me with the faith and love that come from Christ Jesus.

15 This is a trustworthy saying, and everyone should accept it: “Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners”—and I am the worst of them all. 16 But God had mercy on me so that Christ Jesus could use me as a prime example of his great patience with even the worst sinners. Then others will realize that they, too, can believe in him and receive eternal life. 17 All honor and glory to God forever and ever! He is the eternal King, the unseen one who never dies; he alone is God. Amen.

1 Timothy 1:14-17 (New Living Translation)

My Prayer for You in each one of you as an individual person and family and friends as well as aquaintances this journey we call life is for All of You!

10 Love each other with genuine affection,[a] and take delight in honoring each other. 11 Never be lazy, but work hard and serve the Lord enthusiastically.[b] 12 Rejoice in our confident hope. Be patient in trouble, and keep on praying. 13 When God’s people are in need, be ready to help them. Always be eager to practice hospitality.

Romans 12:10-13 (New Living Translation)



My Testimony

Hello Everyone; I thought that I would give this testimony of how things had taken place in my very own life. Some of things has been left out of it. Some of these things You could read between the Lines and to know it in your own heart just as if You had been there taking it all in as one would often time do in these simliar things hurts, habits, and all of those hang - ups as a next person that had gone through it as well themselves.I had often times felt that I had already gone onto as people often times say to whom ever living as if we had already have been in world world 3. I'm only saying this because of me growing as a very small baby I had a Foster Mother in whom I loved so very much for such as I was literally told by her momma from an infant that she wasn't my true Mother that I had a real mother with many siblings living with her and I'd had better get used to it in my life and as in some people very much they had done all the things that any ones own parent could do for them from infancy until almost an adolecent. From the time that I was an only child never did I realize what those truths were until my parents had told Me that I am a foster child that they loved so dearly but they didn't like the way that My real Mother was rasing me and she had kept Me to raised in her undivided "Love" beside being raised where she had loving manner with shown Me just where Her Accountability mattered in her home. Now in my "Real Mother's " home it was so much of a vast differences in her home, and having bad motives and none action that wasn't alot of "Inconsistencies" had gotton Me to where violence and wreckless parents within the family unit and couldn't be myself in that inviroment that for sure was very unstable for my own personal growth. I had thought that those was my parent until one day some cold hard fact and truths came creaping out of my momma. She was stern and I knew what she meant and what she said was gospel.But she loved me just the same for being my foster momma to me. I watched her go through so many trials and heartache in her life and she cried and had been hurt by a husband whom had left us to be with another woman and her already made family. My momma did all those things that a parent could and wanted to do as a mother. She worked and I went to school like any other young child. Of course I acted up badly when I had lived with my precious momma, but I was sort of a mean kid whom had done alot of things that I ought not and should not have done. But the one or perhaps many things about her just made me feel like it was always home to me even til the day she passed away. (Years earlier). She loved me and showed me how to do things in a home, like most momma's do she gave me spankings but it wasn't nothing like my real mother would do. They were so very different as day is to night. My thoughts just never left my momma. You know being with the very brutal side of my real parent will never be forgotton because in the home it was world war 3. It was horrible that at times It just speaks to all of those horable things that had happened to me while living in that place of such high frequencies of motives and in - actions that only a person like me had gone through in a persons own life, of the horrors that went in that place. I later in years found out the real reasons all of those mean actions of the way she was to me and ways she had done alot of things which makes a person like I was so bitterly confused, beaten, raped, and almost killed not only by my real mother but her husband too. I'll never forget what it done to my own soul is like living in hell with fire torching me all of the time, day and night was never a miss.Bu they cursed at me telling me that I was No good and I wasn't going to amount to anything and more cursing came at me like it rolled like a thunder storm in every breath they had taken and couldn't even ask why,I couldn't share my thoughts with them because sure enough I would get it again. They had their parties that lasted into the wee hours in the mornings every weekend with things in the home got broken simly because it would be broken up , fighting, cursing at each other, the windows of the car got broken by a brick being thrown from mother's hand because of those things he had done to her. I knew that I was in hot water again, just because she would run off from being mad at him. I hated those times because I knew what I was in for every time that would happen. Some of my own family member was just like him and did those simliar thing to me.Only 2 of my siblings made so many efforts for me to live with them but to No avil. Everytime I'd get something nice for those holidays it would get ripped into pieces while the other kids got to keep what they had. After a while I really didn't care about anything anymore! They taught me to be just like them and I lost myself ! I just didn't know me anymore.Her hubby used to call me out to his garage filled his brown "Dr. Peppers" glass with his favorite pop as I watched him pour his drink mixed with alcohol, i'm not going to say anything more about that horrible person in that kind of manner. A few of his own family members was just the same. Some of them as well did thing's in like manner for they are sibling that was older than I . I got so tired of those things and after awhile I was like being under a very heavy doeses of anesthesia that I never came out of from being in that place. Everything I had been taught was lost to never return in such a very ugly inside of myself had been ripped apart destroying anything of which I had known about me was gone and I ws No longer there! I left that place and right out in the streets and never looked back at that place again for many of years.I was someone like in Germany that has shared with me simliar virtures that had taken on in my own life from the very start of my street worth had been like in what my husband has shared with me about those brothels that's lined up for many a blocks. It's all I knew how to do and run with the seedy people whom was just like me and thugs,mobsters, thieves. I got caught up with people that most people didn't want to cross over if they wanted to stay alive for the most part, or if they owed a favor yet in turn it wasn't good either.Well drugs, alcohol, kept me up and down for most of those years. I had so many problems that it never gave me a clue. Emotions was high going from one place to another even with scooter people whom I'd hung out at all of those places. For the most part they helped me along my years, then I'd back away and find me another crowd to hang out with, it didn't matter how rich you might of been at the end of those nights I was a shallow of a person whom was there for a time at your expense. Oh, I've have had relationships and marriages even children came out of some. I never thought I'd stop in living like the way I was. It never entered my mind at all, nor would anyone would bring up in helping "self" to see something different in how to stop and detour my life.Oh at times I went back and had seen my momma and she always loved me just like it never ever stopped. I hid alot of things from her that never enterered in our conversations simply I didn't want her to know and thought that she would tell me to leave and never come back to her home again so I kept quiet about it at those times I had been visiting Mom,except to be a good girl.I had lost one child in what had happend in the way I lived my life and some of them from the x's and people whom had tons of money whom ruled the world with an iron fists and towns of which we lived. I couldn't fight it and I lost something that was so precious to me. It had me even tighter and I never knew what to do. But stick my thumb out and hit the trails onward I went back to the home town of which I was born and as it had taken a while while I had been on the road which was full of dangers into the next day . Some of the time that it was fun but today looking back it was the darkest days in my own life. All of those dark nights that was lit from 24 hours lasted more than hours but weeks at a time. I never never ever said that he ever was a person of a father figure to me but as a sperm donor for my mother[Real] is all he had been to me but my real mother life whom loved him and of course had more children between them. So that pretty much how it was back then for me. Until one night and being seperated once again, I had went to someones home and relaxed like I always did with people I knew very well. That night was just a peek of what terrible things that had taken place in my world. And this what some people likes to do to "young ladies or women"I was literally thrown into a car and they had taken me to an abandon house and beat the daylights out of me and raped me and tried to kill me that horrible night that lasted till early morning.For some reason I said a get me out of here prayers, I then saw something liked I'd never ever seen before in my entire life and I've never forgot it till this day. It was a figure liked I've never seen before but the funny part about it it was missing a face while it was there! Oh it white and hands like a real person has on one glossy set of hands and you could see right through it. And a golden crown . Now, that amazed me like never before! Then I saw this figure waving those hands to come this way but it stumped me because I didn't know where those men were in the house. I looked around to see where they were in that place. I wiped away the blood on my face so I could see some what better. As I looked again that person or thing was still waving at me to come unto them. I was frightened and didn't know what to expect! So I just got off that floor and headed out the window and that things or person that I had seen just felt like it guided me to where safety and as they led me then what I then seen was a huge drop to hit the ground. As I did my ankel twisted and I somehow got back straight and ran until I found some help in a apt. building and ran inside. I knocked on door and a another man came to the door and I at once covered myself up and passed out on the floor. Just as You already know where I woke up at and to see just the very fact I was ALIVE! I had lost the court case and to my suprise from what I had found out they did it again to someone much younger than me. That was 2 weeks later after the courts. I went into treatment and left that town simply because my hubby didn't like the fact that I been done by the other race. Man I was so bitterly angry at men so I had turn into a homosexual for a time and when I was in my stupor while drinking I had come to realize what the heck I was doing in a relationship with this woman and I went through tons of help back then and under a shrink for so many years, It was hard but I kept it up after it so I could do what was told to me so I could get better. I went through secular programs and I did so much better and even had a child come back to me, then another one which was a suprise. Even tried to always make things work and had all of those emotions sticking out so very badly. It got so bad that my old self came back to me and I literally stabbed someone . Oh, it finally hit me after one of my very heavy drunks that I really needed some help . I went cold turkey and got off those meds that nearly killed me during that time. Later I moved to another place and tried to do things a little differently. I had my scooter buddies that I had met but this time they we not like those in times past. They began to share me about a man called Jesus in which I had only heard about as a child and never believed! But they shared with me that whole weekend and I found a pastor in that town and began searching for more answers to all of my un - answered questions that they had helped me with in my life. They had a quaint little place which was half restaurant, and church. But I got saved in August 18, 1997. I had met someone and then married him as he had other people round him that I didn't know very well and he had this person move in with us and quite frankly really didn't want him there but between the two to my much suprise another person around whom had made drugs and was selling them I had found about when I saw neddles laying around in different places and I left at the pastors request and on my way out of town he nearly ran me over with his semi-truck in that pouring rain storm but than God and I made it to where I was going. I found my self heading to a hospital early the next morning at my best friends advice. She went to school and if I hadn't been home she knew where to come find me. As it turned out I had died and came back and I knew it was the Lord, My savior whom brought me back. There's more to this story that just blows my mind to this day simply because of that happeneing to me this very day. Oh, Yes I had to re-learn everything over again, just as if I was a very sm. child. I had some long talks with the Lord and cried many tears unto Him only to see for my self that those where trials from Him to see if I ment it or wanted to turn back to the old me.But I didn't thank You Jesus! I kept hanging on like i've never ever did in my life. Some of those people were not nice people at all, they was crude and very abnoxious in all those hateful words and cussing at me, walking all over me just as if I hadn't been standing still. But my precious Jesus and I kept praying and communicating with one another and I went to church and they helped me too. But the cold hard facts is Jesus Christ whom got me through it until this very day. I had sugery this year on memorial day weekend over the stuff that happened to me back then. But You know what ? He always told me that he would never ever forskake me.I know and truly believe it with all my heart today.He is still helping me to learn all the more about Him ... I'm so very thankful unto my precious Jesus for showing me His ways for me to live in and all my cares goes unto Him today.Every time I go though His fires of His many test. One more time he molding me more unto Him to be just as he in the likeness in doing my best in leaving more of me in this old very horrible nasty old world.I left my sins where it all needs to be in His glorious righteousness and it is where it absolutley stays for me and being in the one whom is the almighty God. Now I'm doing my best in Him in leaving old teaching of those religious people behind in still having our close relationship in Him together as I want it more and more in my life forever more til he takes us home to be in that new Jerusalem. I just don't like be a person in what God calls a "stiff necked person" which is incorruptable in front of him. I know that he's destroyed alot of the old me.I know that I still get mixed up at times but He's helping me through it all! Today I get tired so easily and have to rest when my body tells me too My mind often times acts like the "lost child". But that's ok because when I get up... I am with Jesus and helping others the best that I can, My husband and I have opened our home to people whom are in this world today. But after they get through asking questions about our faith, they stop right in those tracks and try to not do what they themselves need to do and try to much and be like the devil himself ! Then we share with each and every one that they need some help at first to get out of those damned up emotions, then try Jesus as they go through it all but they refuse all things and out the door they go. Then the next one apprears and it never has stopped here in our home. We keep sharing the word with them one after another.We too, live on a fixed income that don't help any at all except for the medical. food is very low here at our home, we go to the food pantries, and often times to one family member to have them give us a meal or two. But then we help people out in a church when I can help in sacking up food in bags, and clothing pantries as well. That's how our life is for us as we depend on our heavenly Father And He alway's takes care of us,He's shown us both different kinds of ways that only Him can do in taking care of us, we've seen how the Lord bring us money to pay these bills, and car, and food unto us and protects us through these storms that comes through out town. I can never say enough about our Jesus! At least not so much in words to Him Jesus Christ whom I love very deeply inside of myself and is my King, my Lover , whom rules and judges me when it comes to my own final curtain call for me to Bow down at His feet awaiting my own judgement just as everyone else in this earth it is where it's between he and I only. We truly trust Him[Jesus Christ & the Trinity] in every kind of conditions,situations, trials that comes our way in being in him.I'll lways grow as in time and seasons just like many of You but the potter's wheel as He is going forth in every side that brings up such strong reasons to produce all of my causes, issues,that comes before Himself to represents me in all of my ways as an intercessor for the release to come forth in His own "power & authority in taking me unto His own character daily in being in obedience unto Jesus Christ that continues to draw me until He comes for everyone at a moments notice. The idols are gone and all is left is JESUS today.That my sisters & brothers is the way it is here. I know I didn't mentioned alot of other things but in general You get the message, others that whom truly knows me daily know all of those missing parts of my life. i_a,godschild would like to Thank You for allow in this site,group sites, web sites and other prayer sites as well in holding one another up for prayer's being totally united in everyone around this world, it's about Jesus Christ first and prayers,intecessory prayer's and at other times about this vast world we live in today which this old world as we all know it is slowly departing to be reaching our home in glory and Not missing love ever again and may I alway's growing unto my precious Jesus Christ for He's my lawyer, judge unto this world ends. I will alway's praying and sharing with him in my own heart for everyone in my lif No matter where each of You are in this world that God has made as His people whom stands firm and true without a spot or a wringkle in heading to that one final place called: A New Jerusalem" The Prayer that I had used to bring me out of which I had been in for so very long in my own personal life and may it help anyone whom is out in this world that has come of those simliar things as I had done. Hello Everyone; I thought that I would give this testimony of how things had taken place in my very own life. Some of things has been left out of it. Some of these things You could read between the Lines and to know it in your own heart just as if You had been there taking it all in as one would often time do in these simliar things hurts, habits, and all of those hang - ups as a next person that had gone through it as well themselves.I had often times felt that I had already gone onto as people often times say to whom ever living as if we had already have been in world world 3. I'm only saying this because of me growing as a very small baby I had loved so very much for such as Iand as in some people very much they had done all the things that any ones own parent could do for them from infantcy until almost an adolecent. From the time that I was an only child never did I realize what those truths were until my parents had told Me that I am a foster child that they loved so dearly but they didn't like the way that My real Mother was rasing me and she had kept Me to raised in her undivided "Love" beside being raised where she had loving manner with shown Me just where Her Accountability mattered in her homeand not having bad motives and none action that wasn't been alot of "Inconsistencies" had gotton Me to where violence and wreckless parents within the family unit and couldn't be myself in that inviroment is unstable for your growth. I had thought that those was my parent until one day some cold hard fact and truths came creaping out of my momma. She was stern and i knew what she meant and what she said was gospel.But she loved me just the same for being a foster momma to me. I watched her go through so many trials and heartache in her life and she cried and had been hurt by a husband whom had left us to be with another woman and her already made family. My momma did all those things that a parent could and wanted to do as a mother. She worked and I went to school like any other young child. Of course I acted up badly when I had lived with my precious momma, but I was sort of a mean kid whom had done alot of things that I ought not and should not have done. But the one or perhaps many things about her just made me feel like it was always home to me even til the day she passed away. (Years later). She loved me and showed me how to do things in a home, like most momma's do she gave me spankings but it wasn't nothing like my real mother would do. They were so very different as day is to night. My thoughts just never left my momma. You know being with the very brutal side of my real parent will never be forgotton because in the home it was world war 3.It was horrible that at times I just speak of the horrors that went in that place.I later in years found out the real reasons all of those means and ways she had done alot of things which makes a person like I was so bitterly confused, beaten, raped, and almost killed not only by my real mother but her husband too. I'll never forget what it done to my own soul is like living in hell with fire torching me all of the time, day and night was never a miss.They had thier parties that lasted into the wee hours in the mornings every weekend I knew i was in hot water again, just because she would run off from being mad at him. I hated those times because I knew what I was in for every time that would happen.Some of my own family member was just like him and did those simliar thing to me.Only 2 of my siblings made so many efforts for me to live with them but to No avil.Everytime I'd get something nice for those holidays it would get ripped into pieces while the other kids got to keep what they had.After a while I really didn't care about anything anymore! They taught me to be just like them and I lost myself ! I just didn't know me anymore.Her hubby used to call me out to his garage filled with his favorite pop as I watched him pour his drink mixed with alcohol, i'm not going to say anything more about that horrible person in that kind of manner. A few of his own family members was just the same.Some of them as well did thing's in like manner for they are sibling that was older than I . I got so tired of those things and after awhile I was like being under a very heavy doeses of anesthesia that I never came out of from being in that place. Everything I had been taught was lost to never return in such a very ugly inside of myself had been ripped apart destroying anything of which I had known about me was gone and I No longer there! I left that place and right out in the streets and never looked back at that place again for many of years.I was someone like in Germanythat has shared with me simliar virtures that had taken on in my own life from the very start of my street worth had been likein what my husband has shared with me about those brothels that's lined up for many a blocks. It's all I knew how to do and run with the seedy people whom was just like me and thugs,mobsters. I got caught up with people that most people didn't want to cross over if they wanted to stay alive for the most part, or if they owed a favor yet in turn it wasn't good either.Well drugs, alcohol, kept me up and down for most of those years. I had so many problems that it never gave me a clue. Emotions was high going from one place to another even with scooter people whom hung out at all of those places. For the most part they helped me along my years, then I'd back away and find me another crowd to hang out with, it didn't matter how rich you might of been at the end of those nights I was a shallow of a person whom was there for a time at your expense. Oh, I've have had relationships and marriages even children came out of some. I never thought I'd stop in living like the way I was. It never entered my mind at all, nor would anyone would bring up in helping "self" to see something different in how to stop and detour my life.Oh at times I went back and had seen my momma and she always loved me just like it never ever stopped. I hid alot of things from her that never enterered in our conversations simply I didn't want her to know and thought that she would tell me to leave and never come back to her home again so I kept quiet about it at those times I had been visiting Mom,except to be a good girl.I had lost one child in what had happend in the way I lived my life and some of them from the x's and people whom had tons of money whom ruled the world with an iron fists and towns of which we lived. I couldn't fight it and I lost something that was so precious to me. It had me even tighter and I never knew what to do. But stick my thumb out and hit the trails onward I went back to the home town of which I was born and as it had taken a while while I had been on the road which was full of dangers into the next day . Some aof the time that it was fun but today looking back it was the darkes dayst in my own life. All of those dark nights that was lit from 24 hours lasted more than hours but weeks at a time. I never never ever said that he ever was a person of a father figure tp me but as a sperm donor is all he had been to me but my real mother life whom loved him and of course had more children between them. So that pretty much how it was back then for me. Until one night and being seperated once again, I had went to someone home and relaxed like I always did with people I knew very well. That night was just a peek of what terrible things that had taken place in my world. And this what some people likes to do to "young ladies or women"I was literally thrown into a car and they had taken me to an abandon house and beat the daylights out of me and raped me and tried to kill me that horrible night that lasted till early morning.For some reason I said a get me out of here prayers, I then saw something liked I'd never ever seen before in my entire life and I've never forgot it till this day. It was a figure liked I've never seen before but the funny part about it it was missing a face while it was there! Oh it white and hands like a real person has on one glossy set of hands and you could see right through it. And a golden crown . Now, that amazed me like never before! Then I saw this figure waving those hands to come this way but it stumped me because I didn't know where those men were in the house. I looked around to see where they were in that place. I wiped away the blood on my face so I could see some what better. As I looked again that person or thing was still waving at me to come unto them. I was frightened and didn't know what to expect! So I just got off that floor and headed out the window and that things or person that I had seen just felt like it guided me to where safety and as they led me then what I then seen was a huge drop to hit the ground. As I did my ankel twisted and I somehow got back straight and ran until I found some helpin a apt. building and ran inside. I knocked on door and a another man came to the door and I at once covered myself up and passed out on the floor. Just as You already know where I woke up at and to see just the very fact I was ALIVE! I had lost the court case and to my suprise from what I had found out they did it again to someone much younger than me. That was 2 weeks later after the courts. I went into treatment and left that town simply because my hubby didn't like the fact that I been done by the other race. I went through tons of help back then and under a shrink for so many years, It was hard but I kept after it so I could do what was told to me so I could get better. I went through secular programs and I did so much better and even had a child come back to me, then another one which was a suprise. Even tried to always make things work and had all of those emotions sticking out so very badly. It got so bad that my old self came back to me and I literally stabbed someone . Oh, it finally hit me after one of my very heavy drunks that I really needed some help . I went cold turkey and got off those meds that nearly killed me during that time. Later I moved to another place and tried to do things a little differently. I had my scooter buddies that I had met but this time they we not like those in times past. They began to share me about a man called Jesus in which I had only heard about as a child and never believed! But they shared with me that whole weekend and I found a pastor in that town and began searching for more. They had a quaint little place which was half resturant, and church. But I got saved that year of 1997. I had met someone and then married him as he had other people round him that I didn't know very well and he had this person move in with us and quite frankly really didn't want him there but between the two to my much suprise another person around whom had made drugs and was selling themI had found about when I saw Neddles laying around in different places and I left at the pastors request and on my way out of town he nearly ran me over with his semi-truck in that pouring rain storm but than God I made it to where I was going. I found my self heading to a hospital early the next morning at my best friends advice. She went to school and if I hadn't been home she knew where to come find me. As it turned out I had died and came back and I knew it was the Lord, My savior whom brought me back. There's more to this story that just blows my mind to this day simply because of that happeneing to me this very day. Oh, Yes I had to re-learn everything over again, just as if I was a very sm. child. I had some long talks with the Lord and cried many tears unto Him only to see for my self that those where trials from Him to see if I ment it or wanted to turn back to the old me.But I didn't thank You Jesus! I kept hanging on like i've never ever did in my life. Some of those people were not nice people at all, they was crude and very abnoxious in all those hateful words and cussing at me, walking all over me just as if I hadn't been standing still.But my precious Jesus and I kept praying and communicating with one another and I went to church and they helped me too. But the cold hard facts is Jesus Christ whom got me through it until this very day. I had sugery this year on memorial day weekend over the stuff that happened to me back then. But You know what ? He always told me that he would never ever forskake me.I know and truly believe it with all my heart today.He is still helping me to learn all the more about Him ... I'm so very thankful unto my precious Jesus for showing me His ways for me to live in and all my cares goes unto Him today.Every time I go though His fires of His many test. One more time he molding me more unto Him to be just as he in the likeness in doing my best in leaving more of me in this old very horrible nasty old world.I left my sins where it all needs to be in His glorious righteousness and it is where it absolutley stays for me and being in the one whom is the almighty God. Now I'm doing my best in Him in leaving old teaching of those religious people behind in still having our close relationship in Him together as I want it more and more in my life forever more til he takes us home to be in that new Jerusalem. I just don't like still be a person in what God calls a "stiff necked person" which is incorruptable in front of him. I know that he's destroyed alot of the old me.I know that I still get mixed up at times but He's helping me through it all! Today I get tired so easily and have to rest when my body tells me too My mind often times acts like the "lost child". But that's ok because when I get up... I am with Jesus and helping others the best that I can, My husband and I have opened our home to people whom are in this world today. But after they get through asking questions about our faith, they stop right in those tracks and try to not do what they themselves need to do and try to much and be like the devil himself ! Then we share with each and every one that they need some help at first to get out of those damned up emotions, then try Jesus as they go through it all but they refuse all things and out the door they go. Then the next one apprears and it never has stopped here in our home. We keep sharing the word with them one after another.We too, live on a fixed income that don't help any at all except for the medical. food is very low here at our home, we go to the food pantries, and often times to one family member to have them give us a meal or two. But then we help people out in a church when I can help in sacking up food in bags, and clothing pantries as well. That's how our life is for us as we depend on our heavenly Father And He alway's takes care of us,He's shown us both different kinds of way that only Him can do in taking care of us, we've seen how the Lord bring us money to pay these bills, and car, and food unto us and protects us through these storms that comes through out town. I can never say enough about our Jesus! At least not so much in words as it is in tounges is where it's between he and I only. We truly trust Him[Jesus Christ & the Trinity] in every kind of conditions,situations, trials that comes our way in being in him.I'll lways grow as in time and seasons just like many of You but the potter hs His wheel as He is going forth in every side that brings up such strong reasons to produce all of my causes, issues,that comes before Himself to represents me in all of my ways as an intercessor for the release to come forth in His own "power & authority in taking me unto His own character daily in being in obedience unto Jesus Christ that continues to draw me until He comes for everyone at a moments notice. The idols are gone and all is left is JESUS today.That my sisters & brothers is the way it is here. I know I didn't mentioned alot of other things but in general You get the message, others that know me daily know all of those missing parts of my life. i_a,godschild would like to Thank You for allow in this site,group sites, web sites and other prayer sites as well in holding one another up for prayer's being totally united in everyone around this world, it's about Jesus Christ first and prayers,intecessory prayer's and at other times about this vast world we live in today which this old world as we all know it is slowly departing to be reaching our home in glory and Not missing love ever again and may I alway's growing unto my precious Jesus Christ for He's my lawyer, judge unto this world ends. I will alway's praying and sharing with him in my own heart for everyone in my life No matter where each of You are in this world that God has made as His people whom stands firm and true without a spot or a wringkle in heading to that one final place called: A New Jerusalem" Prayer: Father, I loose any stronghold in my life protecting wrong feelings I have against anyone. Forgive me as I forgive those who have caused me pain, loss or grief. I loose any desire for retribution or to rectify. In the name of Jesus, I loose the power and effects of any harsh or hard words (word curses) spoken about me, to me or by me. I loose any strongholds connected with them. I loose all generational bondages and their stronghold from myself. I thank you Jesus that you have promised whatsoever I bind and loose on earth will be bound and loosed in heaven. In Jesus name, I loose the grave clothes from my soul. I loose any generational bondage from my soul. I loose any opposition and resistance from my soul and I loose any hidden agendas from my soul. I loose, shatter, and destroy the layer of self-control and self-defense, that I have allowed my soul to put down over my unmet needs, my unhealed hurts, and my unresolved issues. Father, some of them have been there for so long, and I have believed they would never be fixed. Forgive me, Father, for believing this, help me to work with You to loose layer after layer myself, so that these layers of vulnerability can be exposed to Your healing grace.I loose the grave clothes from my soul. I loose any generational bondage from my soul. I loose any opposition and resistance from my soul and I loose any hidden agendas from my soul. I loose, shatter, and destroy the layer of self-control and self-defense, that I have allowed my soul to put down over my unmet needs, my unhealed hurts, and my unresolved issues. Father, some of them have been there for so long, and I have believed they would never be fixed. Forgive me, Father, for believing this, help me to work with You to loose layer after layer myself, so that these layers of vulnerability can be exposed to Your healing grace. Thank You for reading this and may You be blessed alway's and forever. Amen. i_amgodschild. . Thank You for reading this and may You be blessed alway's and forever. Amen. i_amgodschild. .

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